By Jan Vicente B. Pekas
We each have our own tendencies in life. Certain idiosyncrasies that make us unique from each other. We can call them flaws that have always been there in our lives or even special qualities that add to one’s beauty. If we get to know a person enough, then we can eventually see all these tendencies in full view.
We know someone who’s always late no matter the occasion. Or someone who often takes too long to reply. In our own family there are those who can get angry too quickly over the smallest of things.
I myself have noticed since I was young my own tendency to focus too much on anything that excites me. I get a tunnel vision and seemingly lose interest of other things around. Some time ago, a captivating book was enough to lose my interest in home works. Even an assignment in college, as much as I hate them, if interesting enough for me, will take away my attention on the several other assignments due for the week.
This tendency has really tested my own ability to manage my time, which has been an uphill battle so far.
But as I have grown older, I notice my own flaw of burning out from focusing too much on these exciting things and never touching them again. To this day, I have several movies, books and several other stories left unfinished because I just lost interest out of nowhere.
My head likes to jump around from one exciting story or activity to another. The thrill of starting something new always seemed more exciting for me than actually finishing them.
I finished a much-loved movie some time ago and the feeling of finishing something I started was strange. It was a bittersweet feeling having to move on from something that has captivated me and brought many sleepless nights due to being too excited for the next episode.
But I realized it to be necessary to finish what I actually started. This habit of mine of starting but never finishing has left out too many lessons and experiences.
I imagine this to be a detrimental factor as I try looking for other things to do in the future. Leaving anything unfinished only breeds more nasty habits, as I have come to learn.
I can only feel some sort of accomplishments if I actually finish any activity. The many unaccomplished things in my life only simmered and resulted in bitterness and regret.
Though the feeling of ending something is different from starting something new, it is the natural course, one that should always be followed.
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