By Atty. Antonio P. Pekas

I just went through a dialysis process in a valiant effort to save my kidneys. For that, an operation on my neck had to be done so my blood can be extracted to go for filtration in a machine and pumped back into my body as my kidneys would have done were they not almost killed by me which would, however, be another story. As I laid down on the hi-tech operating table, I could not help but think of accidents that could happen. What if a nerve got mistakenly cut? Or a vital blood vessel? Or a brownout occurred? Or a million other things? There was no choice but to surrender with a lot of prayers to a drowsy and perhaps tired surgeon who had just finished a number of operations. And some were still waiting. It is in such prayers the immensity lie. Suddenly, you accept the existence of an all powerful being beyond you.
As I learned long ago from the teachings of my Ananda Marga yoga guru, the key to being drenched by God’s grace is to remove your umbrella of ego above your head. It is called surrender. Others call it opening up your heart to God. It is helplessness’ positive side. Supposedly, a part of God’s play to get you close to him.
At the ripe old age of 69, this was personally validated by last minute solutions to serious problems appearing out of the blue.
As I write this, while the dialysis machine purrs beside me at BGHMC, the question again arises. Why are we of little faith?
The moral of the whole thing is not to underestimate the goodness of the almighty for us. Even if it entails settling of karmic debts. Like going through periodic dialysis.
I do think things will not be so bad as the power of surrender and the consequent flow of His grace must never be underestimated.**